When I was a kid I used to have a weird feeling sometimes sort of like I wasn’t quite 1,000% connected to my body. Like I was a sort of passenger or observer or like a tiny alien inside my own head pulling levers and steering. ….. anyway, now that I’m a grown woman and experienced drug taker, I kind of recognize that it felt a little like feeling high or drunk, but not quite like anything I’ve felt since. It used to scare me and I have a few scattered memories of myself trying to explain the feeling to my parents, and being at school and feeling that way and talking to people and trying to pretend I was normal style and not afraid of what was happening in my brain. Glaring sun on a swing set and sand and other little girls who seemed a thousand leagues below or above me. I think everyone’s childhood is filled with strange and terrible little fears. This turned into a weird rant. I was sick and I got my boyfriend sick even though I tried to avoid it. it isn’t anything too serious but it still sucks.