Just started my period… Which explains some stuff emotionally. Now all i want to do is cry and hide in a tiny ball and not look too hard at anything. Just ugh. Yeah. I can’t deal. My mind seems super determined to torture me with thoughts of every bad thing I’ve ever done or seen or had happen to me. Awesome. Let’s fucking roll that horror show out. Yeah baby! Just fucking play that shit! Sure! X_x i feel sick and bad and just can’t fucking deal. Nothing is right. I’m cold and lost and afraid.