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(5)This is for me. For me to write and live in this little block of white and nothing and whatever. Feeling worn and sick and strange and wanting and weak. Hoping coffee will help. Five wedding guides and $100 stand between me and a hopefully relaxing evening. Now is the time.

(4)Finding my stride quickly and easily. Say the same words in a hundred different ways and it’s easy. It’s nothing it’s meaningless it’s a bag of crisps that’s 94.3% air. This coffee has an aftertaste that tastes like celery to me. Shouldn’t have gotten the organic one. Whatever. oh well. Caffeinated celery bean water what the flip ever.

(3)That one I just finished was for a zoo, which are always kinda fun because it’s at least a little different. Coffee is working even though it’s celery-tastic. Haha, I’m so fucking weak, all the songs that are playing on pandora are almost making me cry. I blame hormones. It’s ridiculous.

(2)Over halfway there. Going fast and going faster. Fingers and brain you all know what to do by now. I’m going to be at 86 total by the end of this day. Good. yes. good. I should shoot for more than 5 tomorrow, I really should.

(1)Hunger is starting to eat at me. hahaha. haha ha. Nice one brain. But really body, you’ve got plenty to burn in there, have at it. Where was I? Oh, right. One more guide to write. It’s about a lighthouse or something? I don’t even know, nor do I care. Soon it will be done and I will be done.

(0) I wrote them all and I’m done and I’m exhausted. I should probably go through and queue up some more for tomorrow, but I dunno if I have it in me really. I’m feeling so drained and strange. But that’s okay. I’m done writing and I made $100 in like four hours and that’s  not bad at all so I’m going to try my very best to let myself stop thinking so goddamn much about everything for a little while. Peace. Love.


Playlist 34: traditions live or die by our frail hands edition

Hey kids and fake adults and self-soothsayers. I haven’t made a playlist for a million years, for a million different reasons, none of which I’m going to address. Other entries in other places are dedicated to my forlorn words. This right here is for music and good luck and light and the illusive beast known simply as the weekend. So here we are again, in the spring in the heat and the breeze and the rain if we get very lucky. Keep your fans blowing, your allergies in check, and try to enjoy the greening trees around you. Merry weekend to all, and to all a good Friday night.

1. Say Hi to your Mom – Blah Blah Blah (Cute sad fun morbid soft indie dance party)

2. Broken Bells – The High Road (Chill, nice beats, interesting electronic touches and harmonies)

3. Love & Rockets – Haunted When the Minutes Drag (Sounds like ’80s Depeche Mode in the best ways. Seriously, how is this not ’80s Depeche Mode? Also is this band what that one futurama episode is named after? I bet it totally is.)

4. Caravan Palace – Star Scat (E.L.E.C.T.R.O ~ S.W.I.N.G)

Playlist 33: I make words my bitch on the daily

It’s Friday, and the forecast calls for things and words and wiles and teeth. Birds and branches, stars and sleet. I wish it would snow again soon. It snowed so much recently, it was beautiful. Snow is one of my favorite things. Finished up my work for the week, assuming my editor says it’s cool. I’m looking forward to some time away from my computer, and hopefully a night that I could really use in my secret soul. I wish all of you guys, and myself, a nice weekend. Here’s some songs.

She Wants Revenge – These Things

Beck – Que Onda Guero

Phantogram – When I’m Small

Tunng – Kinky Vans

Feist – I Feel it All

Playlist 32: Friday the 13th Special Edition

Happy the Friday the 13th everyone! It’s always been a good-luck-day for me overall. Valentine’s day tomorrow. All my songs for today are a little slower and chill-er than my usual Friday night fare, but that’s just the way it shook out. Nice music overall. I don’t know what next week is going to bring me, and I’m going to try my best not to worry too much about it for now. I’m going to try and give myself the gift of a couple relaxing days. Whether you are alone or coupled, I hope you have a nice weekend.

1. Hozier – Take me to Church

2. First AId Kit – I Found a Way

3. Ellie Goulding – Lights (Bassnectar Remix)

4. Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeroes – 40 Day Dream

Playlist 31: Softly Sheep Slough through my Sleep

Welp! It’s 7am and I just finished working and I should definitely be going to sleep, and yet, here I am… putting together my tiny little Friday playlist. Today is going to be an interesting Friday. We have plans, and places to be, and things to see. I hope all of you have a lovely Friday and an excellent weekend overall. Here are some songs that popped up during my work-week that I liked.

1. The Kinks – Sunny Afternoon (amazing MS paint video, 10/10)

2. Hooverphonic – 2 Wicky (space chill, chill space)

3. Miike Snow – Horse is Not a Home (Miike Snow I Liike yo)

4. Blue Foundation – Eyes On Fire (zeds dead remix) (whoops I’ve started to like dubstep remixes of stuff.)

Playlist 25: When you get what you wanted but can’t fucking deal edition

Sooo I got the work I wanted, but it turns out it’s incredibly overwhelming and way more time consuming than I thought and I honestly am not 100% sure if I’m going to be able to get it done in time and I’m totally freaking out about it big time. Like real big time. And it’s super not cool for my mental health and whatnot. Soooo yeah. I plan on going to bed *fairly* early tonight, in order to wake up early tomorrow and fucking just work non-stop all day long for like 30 fucking hours. Seriously, not kidding. My boyfriend is going to help me, and I’m honestly considering trying to get my brother to help if he has some time, and just paying him what I would have made for whatever work he does because it’s just… it’s not what I expected and it’s super fucking overwhelming. Like… I’m 3% done at this point and it’s due in less than 48 hours. Just uuugggghhhh. Not cool man. Not cool at all. Soooo I’m busting out this playlist for GOOD LUCK FOR MYSELF because I fucking need it. I hope you guys all have a good weekend, and I hope I get my shit straightened out.

1. Coconut Records – Minding My Own Business

2. The Strokes – Last Night

3. Vampire Weekend – White Sky

4. Greenskeepers – Bang in Your Face

5. Tim Tim – Rum ‘n’ Cocacola (Shake it Up Well)

6. Miike Snow – Black and Blue


Playlist 23: What even is life? edition

Hi, hello, hello, hi. Does it annoy you guys that I seem to *mainly* post playlists on here now? less personal posts? Have I lost followers since I started doing this? I don’t know how to find my follower count on this stupid, difficult to use website so I’m not going to make the effort to answer that question. I will probably go back to writing more personal stuff eventually, but I dunno for sure. Anyway, it has been a pretty uneventful week, and I sort of can’t believe we’re already 1 week into November. What’s that about yo? At least the weather is finally starting to get cool, which I greatly enjoy. Yes, good, cool, yes, good. Well, it’s a short playlist this week anyway, just four songs that I dig, and dug at some point during the week. I hope you guys enjoy your next few days, and your lives in general for that matter.

1. Coconut Records – It’s not You it’s Me

2. Caravan Palace – Maniac

3. Wolfmother – White Unicorn

4. Parov Stelar – All Night


Playlist 17: swing and jump and land and run

The past couple weeks have been …. uuuuhhhhhh….. rough. To say the least. Un-awesome. seriously lacking in awesomeness. So, um… I’m not sure what tonight is going to hold, or the rest of the weekend, but I figured I would throw down a little playlist anyway. Because why the hell not, right? I’m looking forward to some chill and some of that really strong rum that I got a super good deal on. Perhaps other interactions as well. I try not to be presumptuous.  Alright, have a nice weekend. kick it with some tunes.

1. MGMT – Electric Feel

2. Mr. Fijiwiji – The Mentalist

3.  Alt J – Breezeblocks

4. The Neighbourhood – Let it Go

5. Electric Guest- This Head I Hold

Playlist 16: Mad Rad Curation Edition

16 used to be my favorite number for years. I dunno if it still is, I think 4 might be now. But 16 is divisible by 4 so that works. Oh man, I’ve been working all damn day, seriously, since I woke up until now at 5am I have done very little else. @__@ BUT! I’ve gotten a lot done. I did take bit of a break to go to the store earlier, and buy some embroidery supplies because I feel like doing some weird random needlepoint. Hell yeah, trying new hobbies. Hell yeah, using new hobbies as a way to procrastinate! Anyway, it’s officially Friday, and we have a play to go to tonight which will hopefully be fun. It’s a comedy Picasso at the Lapine Agile. Anyway, I think this is a pretty fun lineup of songs for this playlist. hope everyone has a lovely weekend, including myself. *knocks on wood* *but very softly so as not to wake my boyfriend up with weird random knocking*

1. Two Door Cinema Club – I Can Talk

2. Wax Tailor – Que Sera

3. Broken Bells – The Ghost Inside

4. Powerwolf – We Drink Your Blood

5. Jefferson Airplane – Somebody to Love

6. Vance Joy – Riptide

7. Three Days Grace – Break

Playlist 14: Revisit, Review, Replay, and Revise

For this week’s playlist I went back through the playlists from the last few weeks, and found other songs by bands that I liked at least one song from. Twenty One Pilots has been on… a lot of them, but they have a lot of songs that I like, so they are on this one as well. No idea what tonight or the rest of my weekend is going to be like, but hopefully it will be nice, and chill, and not bad. Peace out you guys. I hope you all have good days and nights, and also that I do too.

1. Spoon – The Infinite Pet

2. Twenty One Pilots – Semi-Automatic

3. The Neighborhood – Sweater Weather

4. Phantom Planet – Do the Panic

5. Priory – Lady of Late

6. Capital Cities – Kangaroo Court